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My Princess is Here | Stedman Fayetteville NC Newborn Photography

Just last week I posted a peek of my little princess’s room.  She had a scheduled c-section for  October 10, but of course my babies always have their own plans on when they want to arrive (remember, Aidan was a 26 week baby).

So I had been having contractions on and off for a few weeks.  I’d been on and off bed rest, but they were what the doctors considered normal, Braxton Hicks contractions…nothing to be alarmed about.  Well all day Saturday and Sunday, I didn’t feel Ella move much.  Monday came and she finally started moving again, so I decided to wait until my Wednesday appointment to talk to the doctor about her moving less and about the small contractions I’d been having.  Tuesday, my contractions began to hurt, just a little, and mostly in my lower back.

I went to the doctor Wednesday and they hooked me up to the NST machine to measure my contractions.  She said they were 7 minutes apart, but they were not strong contractions.  I was concerned because in the beginning of my pregnancy, I was told they were going to give me steroids at 34 weeks, then take the baby around 35 after an amniocentesis showed her lungs were ready.  They didn’t want her to weigh over 5 lbs or so because of the scar tissue from Aidan.  But my pregnancy was going so smoothly, that they kept pushing it back and back and finally decided I could go to term–although I still didn’t believe I’d make it.

Anyway, Wednesday after my appointment, they told me to call them if the contractions got closer together, or became painful.  I could barely eat my lunch because they were painful.  So I went to work for a little while anyway (because I’m stubborn).  But around 3, they were unbearable, so I went into the hospital to be monitored.  My doctor called them to tell them I was coming, and just to watch my contractions and give me some fluid because I was probably just dehydrated.  They ran 3 bags of fluid and my contractions didn’t stop, but they weren’t strong.  I was only dilated 1 cm.  But just to be on the safe side, they decided to keep me overnight and just keep monitoring me.

While I was being moved into the Labor & Delivery rooms for monitoring, my placenta abrupted.  I got up to get off my bed and onto the other bed, and I was sitting in a pool of blood.  My contractions became very painful, and were every 2 minutes.  Every contractions, I was bleeding more.  My doctor ordered an emergency c-section, and it only took about 20 minutes to prep the OR and get me in there.  My husband hardly made it to see her birth, he walked in just as they were beginning the surgery.

The worst part, my epidural was not effective.  I could still feel my legs, and every pinch, cut, clamp, you name it.   I think they kept giving me different medicines to try to control my pain level, but they couldn’t stop the c-section.  My blood pressure was rising, I believe the last I remember it was around 270/150.  The placenta was pulling away and there was fear that Ella would go without oxygen.  So instead of a numbing epidural I was given something that made my face numb, then something that made me black out for a minute (either that or I died, I’m not sure) but I did come back to.  I remember screaming–and it was the most horrible experience of my life.  I know that I asked to see her, but I remember my doctor telling me I could but I wouldn’t remember seeing her (and I didn’t).

But Ella is here now, and I’m so thankful.  I’m thankful to God that I was at the hospital when my placenta abrupted.  My doctor told me that had I been at home, Ella would not have lived–and the chances that I survived would have been small.  I was bleeding too much.  And on top of my placenta abrupting, my uterus also tore open.  I’m lucky to have a perfectly healthy baby girl, and also get to live to see my babies grow up.  It was the scariest day of my life, but also one of the happiest.

Margaret Elizabeth Small was born just as her namesake (my granny) was admitted back into our local hospital for her pneumonia.  My granny hasn’t met her yet, but she has seen pictures.  Ella weighs 4 pounds 11 ounces and is 17 inches long.  She’s a good size for a 33 week preemie.  She’s a lucky, loved little girl.

I never thought I could love a baby like I love Aidan, but this little girl has me wrapped around her finger just like her big brother.  She’s the most beautiful baby I’ve ever seen and I can’t wait to see the beautiful young lady she becomes.

I got to peek at her without her c-pap…

Holding her for the first time

Aidan got to meet his baby sister, just for a second.  His little heart was broken that he couldn’t see her right after she was born.  He said “She’s so beautiful and soft!”

She got off her c-pap last night.  They wanted to see if she could breathe on her own, and she made it all night long without it.  I’m so proud of her!

She’s so beautiful, and I’m so in love with her.

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September 18, 2011 - 11:33 am justagirl - oh terrifying! She is absolutely beautiful. I'm so glad that you were at the hospital...and being looked after. My thoughts are with all of you as she gets stronger and gets to go home, and also with your grandmother.

September 18, 2011 - 11:42 am Dana Monticelli - She is beautiful Carrie! What a scary experience! God bless you guys!

September 18, 2011 - 12:15 pm Kelly J. Petersen - Oh what a scary thing to have to endure. I'm so thankful for you and your family and baby that you all have a happy ending. God was surely with you all that day. Congrats Carrie, she is beautiful. XO

September 18, 2011 - 12:16 pm Cristine - Carrie, she's beautiful. I'm so glad you were in the hospital. What a terrifying birth.

September 18, 2011 - 1:36 pm Tawny - Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. I have always felt that when we struggle for something good, we appreciate it all the more. You and your gorgeous little Ella have started a bond of love and sacrifice that will never be broken. She is so blessed to have you as her mother. God Bless you and your family and may wonderful and good memories in the near future wash away the scary memories of the past. You are an inspiration to us all.

September 18, 2011 - 2:08 pm Kristyn LaPres - awful birth experience :( She is so adorable though, I'm sure she's worth every minute of torture you went through for her. thank you for sharing with us!

September 18, 2011 - 2:32 pm Chris Moffitt - Carrie... I have big ol' tears in my eyes right now after reading of your traumatic yet miraculous experience! I am so glad you are both safe and well. Isn't it cool how our hearts grow bigger with each new baby? :) Best wishes for a speedy recovery for you and a safe trip home soon for baby Ella. Take care!! The Moffitt family

September 18, 2011 - 3:01 pm jenn - cariie! how terrifying!! so glad everyone is doing well. she is beautiful.

September 18, 2011 - 3:21 pm Melissa M. - So glad you and baby are on the road to recovery!

September 18, 2011 - 5:52 pm Lisa - What an incredible experience to have gone through. I am so glad you and your sweet baby are both here safe and sound and healthy - you are BOTH miracles!!

September 18, 2011 - 6:28 pm Tina - thank you for sharing your story. such a miracle!! What a terrible experience. I'm so glad that you are both alive and well. She's a beautiful little girl.

September 18, 2011 - 6:29 pm Kate - Carrie she is just amazing and perfect! Thank heaven you were in the right place when things started getting bad. Congratulations on your little miracle.

September 18, 2011 - 6:30 pm Stephanie - Carrie as I read this I could barely read the words for the tears in my eyes. God bless your new baby girl and your family.

September 18, 2011 - 6:33 pm Francine - I have never seen a more beautiful preemie! Your story is amazing. It is clear beyond a doubt you are all meant to be together. <3

September 18, 2011 - 6:42 pm Marla - Oh Carrie, she's so precious, congratulations!! I'm so sorry for all that you went through, I hope you are healing well and taking good care of yourself. Covering your family in prayer...

September 18, 2011 - 6:42 pm Susan Kelly - God surely has a plan for your life and for hers. What a blessing!

September 18, 2011 - 6:56 pm Jenne Dunham - Wow! She's amazing and you're amazing! I'm so thankful you were at the hospital when that happened. What a frightening experience. You both came through it and now have one heck of a story to tell. I can't wait to see her official newborn photos, though these are so powerful and lovely.

September 18, 2011 - 6:59 pm kbritt - What a terrifying story, but what a beautiful little girl. So proud of both of you.

September 18, 2011 - 7:00 pm Amy Shertzer - Congratulation on your beautiful Ella! So glad all is okay in the end and I'll be praying for your healing and that you all get to go home soon!

September 18, 2011 - 7:15 pm tina - She is so beautiful and I'm glad u and baby r doing good! Congrats girl

September 18, 2011 - 7:16 pm Miriam Hill - Wow. I'm in tears reading this...first because I was so scared for you and second because it all turned out beautifully!! Congratulations!!! I am so happy everything turned out perfectly and I can't wait to see all the photos to come of both Ella and Aidan as they grow!

September 18, 2011 - 7:22 pm Susan Weeks - Carrie, she is beautiful!! I was crying as I read your story. So happy that she is getting stronger everyday and that YOU ARE OK!!!!!

September 18, 2011 - 7:34 pm Alyson Hodgkin - What a story and so many blessings. Enjoy every moment. The Lord does have a plan for all of us and He wants you to be with your children. Congratulations!

September 18, 2011 - 7:52 pm Nicole Mathison - Carrie, Congrats on your new beautiful baby! Your birth story had me in tears. So thankful that everything turned out just fine! Prayers for speedy healing!!

September 18, 2011 - 7:59 pm Tracy - You and your family have been in my prayers. Ella is just beautiful and I am soooo glad you and her both are doing well. What a scary time. Thank God for your blessings!!

September 18, 2011 - 8:41 pm Summer Safrit - Carrie- She is absolutely beautiful. What a scary experience but I am so thankful that everyone is doing well. I can't wait to meet Ella one day. :)

September 18, 2011 - 9:30 pm Rebecca - Congrats Carrie! She's beautiful! My placenta abrupted with my twins at 32 weeks, but they're doing great. I'm so glad you were in the hospital! And what a gorgeous baby girl! Congrats!

September 19, 2011 - 10:09 am Lacey - Oh, Carrie ... what an experience. I thank the Lord you were at the hospital! And precious Ella ... what a doll. Please know that you and your family are in my prayers as you spend your time in the NICU and begin your life as a family of 4.

September 19, 2011 - 11:19 am Kim Kravitz - Aw! Congrats Carrie!!! She is so precious!!!

September 19, 2011 - 1:11 pm Judi - God Bless you and your family!

September 22, 2011 - 1:57 pm Jenny Rister - Oh my goodness, she is sooo sweet,an angel.

September 26, 2011 - 2:43 pm Stacey - Just saw the news! Congrats Carrie! Glad she is doing well. Will be praying that she masters eating and is home soon!

September 26, 2011 - 8:31 pm Amanda Richards - She is gorgeous Carrie :-) Somehow this is the first time I have ever been to your blog and when I started reading your story I felt like I was reading about myself. Wow! I have never come across anyone with the same terrifying birth I had. My thoughts are with your family. XX

September 29, 2011 - 10:56 pm Charlene Shumaker - So glad that you and your precious little girl are okay. My niece had the same thing happen to her but she was at home and they lost their little girl.

October 25, 2011 - 11:40 pm Lynnea - Oh Carrie, she is beautiful. I'm so sorry for all that you had to go through & am glad you're both okay. A friend of mine had an emergency c-section with her twins & she had the same experience with the epidural not working - truly horrifying. Big hugs.

October 26, 2011 - 8:39 am Adele Humphries - Oh my goodness Carrie! What a terrible experience! So glad it had a happy outcome and that you and Ella are both well. Congratulations on your beautiful new addition xxx

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